I don’t know what to do with this whole blogging thing.
On one hand, I love it. I love the writing, the friends, the relationships and the community. It’s fun and interactive and I like putting my thoughts out into the universe for others to see. I truly missed this little habit while on hiatus this summer.
On the other hand, something is different… A bit off, if you will. The internet friends I’ve made over the last few years have become real life best friends (and even a boyfriend.) I no longer read their blogs as a voyeur, peering into an unknown life to satiate the fact that I’m REALLY NOSEY. Instead I read what they write to keep up with graduations and cross-country (or continent) moves, engagements and weddings and babies and all of that. We send cards and Trader Joe’s care packages and text message and visit each other. Those once-strange internet friends have become best friends.
And honestly, I couldn’t tell you the last time I added a new blog to my Google Reader.
That sounds bad, right? I mean, I’m a huge fan and proponent of 20-Something Bloggers, and I love that the community is growing and thriving. But where I once felt like part of the Inner Circle, I now feel like a stranger. I try to read the blogs of active users and featured bloggers, but I just cannot muster up the energy to invest in creating the same quality of relationships I have now.
Things are different now, but different isn’t bad. When I started blogging 2.5 years ago, I was a sophomore in college on the mend from a break up and feeling incredibly lonely and unsure of myself. Now I’m 23 and confident and satisfied and in love and life has happened.
I’m glad the environment around me has changed and evolved, even if that means letting go of the way things used to be. I’m grateful for the past and I’m super duper beyond excited for the future. And that future will definitely include blogging, one way or another.
P.S. Anyone want to let me know if this shows up in your reader? I changed the URL and thought that I had the feed all fixed but who knows. THE INTERNET IS HARD Y’ALL. Or you can just subscribe to whatever feed this is right here. Or not. Whatever.